ARRRRRRRRRGH

In SO MUCH PAIN. I hate my back i hate my back ihatemybackihatemyback. Contemplating home surgery to amputate it, swear to god. done with this so done with this. whywhywhywhywhy!?!?! I can't live like this anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whoooops.

I totally bombed an audition tonight. I had never practiced the song with just the chords and that's how the pianist ( who was totally sweet!!!) played it, and I kinda sucked. lol. Guess I won't be getting a birthday call back! Bummer! More time with my family though, and to get the house in order for when Peter moves in if I wait until this summer to do a show, I just feel like I'm drowning because I haven't been on stage since last summer, and I just really miss being in a show. Ran into a friend from high school tonight, she performs as Princess Leia at different cons and what not, and she's super sweet. She ended up giving me her Princess Leia Trading Card. I gave it to Drew when I got home, and he thought it was the coolest thing ever. ;) People are so cool.

I am so in love. :)

I've been reeeally sick the past few days, lots of nasty tummy things I won't describe but it was not fun and I'm feeling a bit better today, my stomach still hurts but much better overall.

My man called me on the way home from band practice, and I was kinda whining. lol. I get a little bratty when I don't feel good, and he asked me if a hug would help, and I realized he was parked outside.

I booked it down the stairs and got a wonderful hug. Don't want to get him sick so no kissing or any of that fun stuff, but the hug was amazing. I felt completely revived afterwards, and I can't stop smiling.

Pre-exercise rambling.

So, while out thrifting with my soon to be Mother-In-Law, I discreetly purchased a dvd of "Carmen Electra's Aerobic Striptease". Hahahahaha.

I've now decided to try it. hehe. We will see what happens.

I am one of those extremely clumsy people.

I hope I don't break anything.

haha. ;) We'll see what happens!

Can't believe I'm abandoning the Golden Globes for working out. Who is this new me?

Oh, had an awesome double birthday part day today. My sons amazing girlfriend just turned 7 and they held hands for half the party and sat next to each other, and they're just so adorable. Love her Mom, and she is just the sweetest little girl. I totally added her Mom as a friend on facebook. Think potential to become good friends is there, which is awesome!

Just happy overall. Except for the weight I gained. Not happy about that one bit. Kinda cranky with me. Gonna fix it! Off I go to do that. lol

I had an audition tonight. It was so much fun to act again, even just for a little while. Luckily I get a second chance tomorrow! ;) Got called back, so here's hoping. I miss being on stage so much, this would be wonderful! Sure would put a jump on my new years resolution. lol. ;)

I have had a few really awesome wins lately! I love entering contests. I enter so many, and recently have been pretty lucky. It's really fun. :)

Hoping you all are having a wonderful 2011!

THIS SUCKS, And the no good very bad day. lol

I'm in such a bad mood.

Like everything is just irritating me. It's okay, I'll be fine. I get the weekend with my man, but I'm just depressed about a lot of stupid things.

I need my license. Like. Now. It has to happen. I'm going to be driving with my man all day today, I just have too. My whole world will open up once I can drive and I won't have this constant feeling of imprisonment. I feel like Fiona in Shrek, just my castle is a small town.

I miss New York, I miss New York, I miss New York, I miss New York.

I think this is mostly pms. I hope so, because I am just in a crabby, crabby mood.

I miss entering contests. I miss reading blogs. I've just been crazy busy. Can't wait until Christmas is over. I hate that I dread Christmas now. Being poor sucks.