SOOOO sorry to anyone who got spam from my AOL account. :( I somehow got hacked. Have since changed password, hope that's the end of it, but man do I feel like an idiot. How did that even happen? Ugh. So sorry guys. :(

absolute agony from my back today (and most of this week) the spasms have been out of control. i know in large part it's because i've had to move set pieces that are too heavy and awkward for me, and everytime i've said anything about it, there's a certain male cast member who always tries to make me feel bad "well i have back problems too, and i can lift it with one hand!" guess what buddy, if you can lift it with one hand, and i'm reduced to a sobbing shaking mess after trying to lift it with all my strength my back problems might be worse then yours. just saying. thank god for the rest of the cast. i had a spasm that lasted over twenty minutes during our show the other day and thankfully my dad brought a pain pill and some muscle relaxants and i was able to get the spasm to stop. tried cleaning my house today and apparently shouldn't have attempted to lift a box of books because this spasm is going on for at least as long and i did 3 muscle relaxants.. to no avail. i just don't understand why i have to be in pain constantly. i'm so tired of hurting all the time.

Love rocks. Just saying. :)

I think it's terrible when adults pick on children. Absolutely pathetic, actually.

Senuti is a really awesome program. I was able to save all my music on my ipod, and now my music is all together in one place. Happy Day! I'm so excited! This is going to make walking so much more fun. And I have rehearsal tonight so I think I'll just walk there and get some exercise. Awesomeness. Lily's hanging with me watching cartoons, nearly nap time. I have been neglecting my contesting and have noticed since I haven't been getting anything exciting in the mail lately. lol. Maybe during nap time I'll try and catch up a little.

Sad.

My fiance's sister is mad at me, and whatever, that's fine, but it really sucks for my kid. He keeps asking when he's going to see his "Auntie" again. Like seriously? What can I even say? Sadness.

Am doing a musical with a BUNCH of my friends this summer, i'm a Pick A Little Lady in Music Man, and one of my dearest friends, and she's a bridesmaid too, and her husband are playing Marian and Harold, so that's cool, and just tons and tons of friends are going to be there. Peter isn't. He didn't audition, has too much going on with moving and what not. His kitty's moving in here this weekend! Hoping we can kick the peeing other places but the litterbox habit. Either way still better then Milo was towards the end of his life.

Oooh, time to read The Horse and His boy before school. It's growing on me, but so far I really prefer the first two. Shasta kind of annoys me. I like Aravis though. And it's weird to see Susan and Edmund all growing up and Susan being old enough to have a marriage arranged. Makes me wonder about all of the kids and what adult experiences they had, if you know what I'm saying. lol. Can you imagine coming back to being a kid after umm... ya know? lol

Is so sick and tired of the polarization of the political process.

Seriously.

I can't believe all of the nasty things on Facebook I'm reading.

I mean seriously you all, this is a win for the world.

All of this "GOD LOVES AMERICA MOST!" God bless America and only America. It's funny. I don't remember reading in the Bible that God made America. I thought he made the Earth. And this whole idea of "GOD LOVES US MORE. WE"RE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!! We're SO MUCH BETTER then everywhere else..." well you can tell by the levels of child molestation, rape, murder, and all of the greed and cruelty in this country that maybe we have some stuff to work on...