Saturday, November 20, 2010

THIS SUCKS, And the no good very bad day. lol

I'm in such a bad mood.

Like everything is just irritating me. It's okay, I'll be fine. I get the weekend with my man, but I'm just depressed about a lot of stupid things.

I need my license. Like. Now. It has to happen. I'm going to be driving with my man all day today, I just have too. My whole world will open up once I can drive and I won't have this constant feeling of imprisonment. I feel like Fiona in Shrek, just my castle is a small town.

I miss New York, I miss New York, I miss New York, I miss New York.

I think this is mostly pms. I hope so, because I am just in a crabby, crabby mood.

I miss entering contests. I miss reading blogs. I've just been crazy busy. Can't wait until Christmas is over. I hate that I dread Christmas now. Being poor sucks.

Monday, November 1, 2010

This is Halloween! .. Well, yesterday was. :)

Had a wonderful Halloween!

My kiddo had a party on Saturday, then my fiance and I went to two parties Saturday night (Even if we sacked out early at the second one. ;) I guess we're getting old. haha)

Then Sunday we picked up my son and brought him over to his Grandma's house! It's great to be able to say that. :) My fiance's Mom has been so incredible and so welcoming, and considers my son her grandson which is wonderful because my son has a deep lack of Grandmas. My Mom died a few months after he was born, his bio Dad's Mom is a nasty horrible woman that even his bio dad has forbidden to be in his life, and my Grandma is turning 90 soon so this is just wonderful to have been so welcomed, and so loved and to have my son be too. I'm so blessed. I have the most wonderful family, and consider my soon to be in-laws family all ready. They're wonderful.

To anyone going through a hard time, keep chugging. Eventually everything falls into place and life is wonderful. I never, ever thought I would say that, but truly.. I am in tears at just how happy I am. Overflowing with love for so many.

Anyway, after we went to Grandma's house! (great to be able say that!) we went over to her church and they threw this amazing party for all of the kids, and then from there we went trick or treating, my kiddo, my fiancee and I, and then my God Daughter and her Dad came for a bit too. It was just awesome.

Hope you all had a wonderful Halloween too.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

bill collectors

I just got off the phone with a collection agency/lawyer place. I had insurance for the time they're harassing me about I made that clear and they just keep trying to collect. My personal theory is they've all ready collected from the insurance and are now trying to collect from me too. I could not believe how horrible the people I spoke to there were. I'm going to contact the BBB and FCC. It is unacceptable to treat people like that.

Sunday, September 26, 2010


I am officially engaged!


Never been so happy in my whole life.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Evil children from Satan's tit.

I really dislike a child in our neighborhood.

He's taken it upon himself to make my sons life a living hell.

He is 5 years older then my son, and is the mastermind behind trying to turn the rest of the kids in the neighborhood against my son, and attacking him constantly.

I spoke with his Mother this morning. Woke her up. We'll see if anything changes.

Otherwise I have a friend whose brother is a cop. Maybe I'll see if he'd be willing to come over and scare the heck out of this kid. I don't think I'll be happy until the kid is pissing his pants in terror.

My son has cried for hours and hours and hours by how evil this older kid is.

I've HAD IT. I am absolutely livid and something had better change.

Otherwise I may make immodium cookies especially for that brat. Or kaopectate kool-aid.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Good Golly!

I haven't posted here in aaaages. I'm a really bad blogger. Sorry guys. life has been craaaaaaaaazy!

My computer finally died it's true death.

My Dad was sooo awesome and bought me a new one for the next 5 birthdays and christmasses. ;) Which is perfect for me. It's so incredible, I love it.

Unfortunately when the computer died I lost ALL of my favorite places... which means all of the work I'd been doing for the next silent auction died too, so I've been desperately trying to refind links and favorite things but can't find many of them.. but it's okay, I've found new ones instead, so i think we'll be okay.

New school year. My son ADORES his new teacher and so do I. She is so enthusiastic, and all around just fantastic.

Hoping to spend time with the man tonight, but it's Thursday, which to the boys means taco and beer night every week, and I don't know if he'll be coming over. The whole schedule this week is off, because I have a dear friends Bachelorette Party and Bridal Shower (not in that order), this weekend. So very, very busy.

Also very, very broke. ugh. :(

I've been so busy I feel like I've just fallen off the map. With the exception of watching the Goddaughter and hanging out with her parents, and then with my kid and my Dad, i've been a bit isolated, save some awesome phone conversations with the Man and many of my awesome friends. Still, I need to get out of the house more.

Speaking of the house, little by little it's getting cleaner. The kitchen is unrecognizeable, and so is a large portion of the living and dining rooms.

Wish I could say that for upstairs as well, but no, that's still a crazy mess. It's been fun getting rid of things though I feel a huge weight off my shoulder every time I take a car full of something to donate. It's good.

All righty, it's BBAW, so I need to go and do some book blog reading, commenting here and there, and enter some contests. I love BBAW. I can't believe it's half over and I just realized it was this time last night. Yikes! Way behind this year! I just seem to be a little out of step.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

doobee doobee doo

My boyfriend had a pretty great 30th birthday. We ended up talking all night, per usual. :) I shouldn't have had the long island. Won once at bar bingo though, nearly paid for my tab. lol. Got up far too early today and got a ride back home, and hung out with my kiddo a bit before heading out for more garage sale-ing which was lovely, and I get to see Wicked tomorrow! I'm so blessed to have so many great people in my life. I'm just ridiculously happy. I wish my whole life had been like this, but hey, better late then never. ;) I'm hardly ever sad anymore, and it's so great. I'm losing weight too. Rapidly. I went from a size 18 this time last year, down to a size 11 when I bought these jeans last week, and they're all ready loose on me. I don't know how it's happening, besides just walking and being happy for a change, and not drinking soda generally. I'm not going to complain! I just don't really understand how I've lost so much so fast. Maybe from when they took the gall bladder out? I don't know. My pseudo-sister, her hubby and their daughter my God-Daughter are heading to the Carolinas for a couple of weeks so I get to house sit, and feed the pets. I'm excited. I love house sitting. lol. Anyway, she's leaving soon so I need to give her a call. I'm super Mom btw. I bought my kiddo three bags of various Star Wars action figures and he is downstairs staging a major battle, and happy as can be. And thank goodness for Central Air. I don't know how people cope without it. I really don't. Rambling again. Ending here. :)

Monday, August 9, 2010


My son has allergy induced asthma.

Or so we learned at the er tonight.

It was very scary, but he'll be fine, it wasn't as bad as the bronchiolitis last year when he was admitted for a week, and they sent us home with a nebulizer and a ton of treatments, and I feel confident in how they showed me to use it that I'll be able to do that for him no trouble.

Just worried this'll effect his future.

Exhausted. Going to bed. Hope ya'll are doing well.

I get to watch two babies on top of my sick kid tomorrow. ;) I'm excited though, they're good one year olds and love playing with each other and my kiddo just adores both the little ones, so it'll be rewarding if exhausting.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Mini Update

Hey hey hey.

Been a pretty great week overall. My munchkin is a little sick but the homeopathic adhd stuff we've been trying for him does seem to be having a bit of an effect. He's been reading to me more often, spending lots of time playing Sonic on my phone. lol. But I don't think video games are all bad. I played a bit myself this weekend with the man.

I love him so much. I know everyone's sick of hearing about it, but I'm just so happy. I want everyone in the world to experience love like this. I've never been so happy or safe in a relationship as I am with him.

He's turning 30 this coming week. Making sure I can find a way to spend his actual birthday with him, then going with his family (and mine!!! Eee! The big official meeting-y thingie!) this coming weekend. Also we're going to go out of town together for a weekend as my birthday present to him. Not sure where we're going, just somewhere for the two of us. Should be great.

Ooh, went to our friends birthday party last night and watched the UFC fight. It was good!!! For being a pacifist, I sure enjoyed that. lol Maybe it's all the pent up aggression from dealing with a variety of irritating and aggravating people this summer, but it was fun! lol.

Went garage saling this week which was awesome. Managed to get a little lost, which is one of my undeniable skills. If I am in the car, and there are not direct mapquest or gps directions, I will get people lost. No denying it. It happens constantly.

Half an hour or so one of my friends I haven't been able to hang out with much is coming over.

My best friend out in NYC and I write together, we have some storylines we eventually want to turn into an HBO pilot. Sure it's a pipe dream but she's got the connections. Anyway, we haven't written together in ages, and it makes me a little sad. I feel like our characters are just frozen in space and time.

True Blood tonight!

-- Not such a mini update after all, huh? I talk/type too much.

Going to cuddle with my kiddo, see if the acetaminophen has knocked out his fever yet. Poor kiddo.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Garage Sales

Had a lovely day garage saling with friends. :) Now just entering some contests. Going to hop in the shower in a bit and shave my legs. not sure if I'm wearing a skirt or not, but I get to see my man tonight. :) Even if it's just for a few hours.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010


having a bad day. just everything's building up. all the drama from the current show im in, the one i'm teaching, having this stupid kidney infection when I thought I was done with all that crap, having to spend a lot more money then I budgeted for a friends wedding and not knowing where in the world that money is going to come from. i haven't seen my boyfriend in like 4 days, and i just need to hug him. and once this crap show is over, it'll probably go back to once a week, and how the hell am i going to deal with that? aaaaargh! i'm so done with drama. i'm sick of it on every level, but i have certain obligations where if someone is doing something dangerous or illegal i have to bring these concerns forward and apparently that makes me satan. whatever. screw it.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

What are we singing tonight.

I have been a bad bad blogger.

I haven't posted at all. Things have been crazy but overall really great.

Crazy in love. Can't say more until the shiny is official. ;)

Wizard of Oz opens this week. Love so many people in the cast and crew, it's going to be an adventure.

Mini-me is having a blast being on summer break.

I've been teaching theatre to kids again too, and that's been the highlight of my summer to be honest. I love theatre. I love teaching. I love kids. You combine all three and I'm ridiculously happy. It's fun.

Hope you're all having a great 4th. I need to take a shower and then we'll be heading downtown for fireworks. My brother's coming over too with his best friend. Also my man, his cousin and some of his friends. It should be a good time.

I'll be entering more contests soon. I've just been too busy lately.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Zydrate comes in a little glass vial..

Hey guys,
sorry I haven't been around. Had to have my gall bladder out, and have had a few complications with infection. Been rehospitalized once since the initial surgery and now I'm home taking pills and not moving. I feel really bad because there's a funeral for a wonderful woman today and I don't think I had better go. Everything hurts so much and I don't want to take any focus off of her. I just wish I could be there for my boyfriend though, it's his Grandma.

My kiddo wants to cuddle. This is accomplished with a barricade of pillows so he doesn't hurt me. lol. It's me, his Easter Bunny and the Oldies station right now. We're having a great theological discussion about Joseph and his mean ol' brothers who threw him in the well.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Rough Week

My boyfriends Grandma died. I'm so sad. She was such a cool lady, and I'm here for him, but we're just all so busy. He's helping move 3 different sets of people this week including all of his Grandma's things. I'm helping our mutual very good friends with all the packing and what not, and will be watching my GodDaughter while her parents are getting all the big stuff into their new house, which is even closer to mine, so that part is cool.

Watching a neat jazz documentary with Dad. He just ran out to get the very last pack of cigarettes. Then I'm quitting. That's the plan anyhow. I gave up soda and haven't had any for a Month.

And hey I've been a vegetarian since I was 12.

I'm pretty good at giving up on stuff if I decide too. I just have to convince myself that cigarettes are the factory farm of my lungs.. or something. I don't know.

Just checking in to see how ya'll are doing.

I'm getting a lot of info ready for the next charity auction I'm going to be working on, getting the base work down at least. Going from there.

My son is probably going to need medication for his adhd. He's having such a difficult time. He's SO smart, but he just can't seem to sit still. He's at a 2nd grade level for reading and nearly a 2nd grade level for math, and he's turning 6 in a couple of months. Socially though, he's behind, because he just can't sit still and understand his space vs. others space.

Any Mom's out there gone through this? I'm so torn about my options.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


Theatre is a huge part of my life.

All I ever wanted to be my whole life was an actress.

I had everything right in line to be one too, but then I got sick, and then my Mom got sick, and so I came home to Minnesota from New York.

Then I got knocked up.

Then my Mom died.

And here I am.

I wouldn't trade my son for the world. He's the best part of my life and I'm so grateful my Mom got to hold him before she died, and that I have pictures of the two of them together.

I really miss performing though.

I work with a community theatre, and perform there and have had some really fun roles. I also serve on the board of directors and will be teaching theatre education this summer, which should prove to be really fun.

My son has inherited my love for theatre and is in a production of Oliver! right now, and I've also joined the board of directors for the childrens theatre that he's performing with.

I've worked on the administrative side since I was 18, doing non profit work, mainly in fund raising and silent auction work.

I just really miss being on the stage more then one show a year.

What did you want to be when you grew up? Are you still doing that, or any part of that?

Monday, March 22, 2010

Random Monday

Every now and then when I need an excuse to not do something I go to wikipedia and click the random article button on the left hand side until I find something interesting. Here's what I found today:

Stan Bolovan is a Romanian fairy tale collected in Rumanische Märchen. Andrew Lang included it in The Violet Fairy Book.

A version of the tale also appears in A Book of Dragons and A Choice of Magic, by Ruth Manning-Sanders.


Stan Bolovan's wife was sad, though they were prosperous. Finally, she confessed that she was grieved that they had no children. Stan visited a wise man and begged him for children, and ignored his warnings about feeding them all. He returned to find his wife delighted: they had a hundred children. Soon, they found they could not feed them all, and Stan set out to find food.

He found a flock of sheep and hoped to steal some, but a dragon stole animals and milk from the flock. He asked, and the shepherds promised him a third of the flock if he rid them of the dragon. He met up with the dragon and said he ate rocks by night and flowers by day and would fight. He set a contest: he squeezed buttermilk from cheese, and the dragon tried to squeeze it from a rock, and had to own he was better. The dragon offered him service with his mother, who would pay him sacks of ducats.

The mother set them to trials: her son threw a staff as far as he could, and then it was Stan's turn. First, he told the dragon he was afraid that he would kill him with the force; then he claimed to be waiting until the moon got out of the way, at which the dragon, who prized the staff as his grandfather's, threw it back instead. The mother then sent them to fetch water, and Stan could not have carried the skins she sent, but when he said it was too much bother and threatened to carry the stream instead, the dragon carried them for him. The mother then sent them to gather wood, and Stan started to tie trees together, declaring he would carry back the entire wood, and the dragon brought back wood for him, before he uprooted the forest.

The mother told her son to crack open his head in the night. Stan hid under the pig's trough and was not harmed. They gave him gold to go away, which he could not carry, but he said he wanted to stay in her service, because his friends would be ashamed of him, to carry so little; they urged him to go, and he went on the condition that the dragon carry back the gold for him.

He did not want to go all the way home with the dragon, so that it would not know where he lived, but his hungry children came running, and were so hungry they shouted for the dragon's flesh. It dropped the gold and ran away.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Party Like a Rockstar

I have a party to go to tonight.

I'm kind of freaking out.

It's possible I made my brunch orange juice into a Screw driver as I consider my options.

What would inspire such stress you wonder?

Oh, my closet.

Figuring out what to wear to a party called "Party Like a Rockstar". My boyfriend is going to be here in under an hour. I still haven't showered. Shaved my legs? Hah. Crap.

What in the world do I wear?

It's a duo birthday party for some friends of ours. I took one of our friends whose birthday it is to RENT as her birthday present a few weeks ago and she seemed to really like it.

Now being someone who not only loves RENT but knows members of the cast and has performed in workshops of the show you'd think I'd have some rockstar worthy apparel. Not so much. That's what costumers are for and I don't have one on salary. haha.

The sad part is there's probably total rock star'y clothes in my closet, I just don't know how to put them together, and if it was anyone elses closet I could totally help them but since they're my clothes it's like I go blind. Ugh!

I know I want to wear jeans. That's as far as I've gotten so far. Crap crap crap.

Oh, and I bought a shirt at Walmart yesterday ( don't hate. it was a dollar!!) and it has the union jack on it, so I think that might be a possibility except that it's a miley cyrus shirt so if anyone else went to walmart and saw said union jack shirt i'm screwed. lol. this sucks. haha

All right. Off to battle the terror of my closet after I slam the rest of this orange beverage.

Friday, March 12, 2010


TEASER TUESDAYS asks you to:

Grab your current read.

Let the book fall open to a random page.

Share with us two (2) “teaser” sentences from that page,

somewhere between lines 7 and 12.

You also need to share the title of the book that you’re getting

your “teaser” from … that way people can have some great book

recommendations if they like the teaser you’ve given!

Please avoid spoilers!

Here's mine from Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett's Good Omens. My first time reading it on recommendation from a friend. Liking it quite a bit so far, even if it is a little irreverent. Sometimes I think we need a little of that. So long as we're grounded in our own religion, and aren't doing anything terrible to one another, I don't see anything wrong with it. Anyway, here's my two sentences:

" In order to maintain his cover as a typical second-hand book seller, he used very means short of actual physical violence to prevent customers from making a purchase. Unpleasant damp smells, glowering looks, erratic opening hours -- he was incredibly good at it."

-- That's something I can relate too a little. I have a small book store on Amazon just to help ends meet when I have books I've finished, or when friends pass on their college textbooks to me to sell for them. Frequently there are books I would rather keep on my shelf then post. lol. Sometimes I consider describing them a little less then wonderfully in order to keep them a bit longer, hoping I'll have time to actually enjoy them. Usually just leaves to positive feedback for the book being in much better condition then described. ;)

What are your Tuesday reads? Would love to read 'em :)

Thursday, March 11, 2010


I feel a little betrayed that so many spammers are now using sify as the end part of their email addresses instead of yahoo or hotmail or whatever else they used to use, because I automatically think science fiction and think "Oooh, Star Wars!" or "Battlestar Galactica" or "I love Spock!" Or something equally geeky, and then I'm always slightly devastated when it's a discounted offer for cialis. I would have far preferred a discounted spice shipment from Corellia, a visit from Firefly's Doctor or some cool blasters. Alas.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


Late to the game, but I went to Avatar today and absolutely adored it.

I was surprised by all of the liberal themes though. As a relatively liberal person myself I had no issue with it, but with how wildly successful the film has been I was wondering how it is that either people have ignored those themes, or haven't noticed them or what's going on? Anyone, anyone... bueller?

Oh and also... Unobtanium? Really, James Cameron? That's the best you could do on that?

Everything else was pretty darn genius, but Unobtanium? lol.

Watching American Idol. So far not impressed at all with the guys. Liked 2 of the girls yesterday. What's happening with this show? And Ellen basically just goes along with everything whoever in front of her says.

I miss Paula. :(

Tuesday, March 9, 2010


Hey everyone.

Looking at a number of new job opportunities and entering contests in record numbers thinks to a lot of insomnia. ;)

Thinking about beginning to review books here and maybe other items too.

Working on 3 hours of sleep right now though, and waiting for a very Ben-heavy LOST and looking forward to it.

My munchkin is on Spring Break this week so things have been a little crazy around my house. It's fascinating to me how much harder it is to keep my house clean the more time my kid spends at home. lol. c'est la vie. ;)

Saturday, February 20, 2010


ugh. i have the worst cold and possibly an ear infection. the only positive in not getting out of bed is that i'm catching up on some contest entries. glad it's not contagious through the internet, i'd hate to give this to any of you. sure hoping my kiddo doesn't get it and then share it with his kindergarten class. ugh.